WTF

Life Fucking Sucks! One would think that after taking anit-depressants that you would not feel utterly depressed anymore. But what the fuck when I feel more depressed than ever? I seriously feel like killing myself. If I owned a gun I would splatter my brains all over the cement outside. I guess that is why I don't own one.

Does she love me? I don't know. Do I love her? Well maybe. I have given her a small piece of my heart. Does she know that? Why? I don't know... I guess I just can't help it. I have nothing to give but that. That is all I can give to the world. And so I give her a little, in exchange for that kiss that should feel this gapping hole. I love the world, but does she love me? I think she does. How can she not, after all we have been through. If I were a plant I would be withering away slowly. I think she said she loved me. But I just don't know. I have never hated the world, just my life. I won't hate you.